POSSIBLY RAVEN ALSO NEEDS TO GET OVER HIMSELF A BIT
Her questions were sort of asking if he got tired of being "Raven" but really what he was tired of that point was... Aather-responsible-persona, which you could call "King" or you could just call "being responsible." Getting tired of his brand of being responsible which mostly involves ignoring all of his own feelings in favor of doing what he thinks he needs to in bad situations, GASP WHO WOULD HAVE IMAGINED. Raven maybe you just need better coping mechanisms.
He has real trouble thinking of it that way though! In his opinion Damuron died ten years ago and it's impossible to be him anymore even if he wanted to, Schwann is also dead and was never real and kind of terrible anyway, and what he's left with is Raven which was just a mask! And he's trying to fill in things behind it now with bits and pieces as he slowly figures out his actual honest feelings but it's still a work in progress! NEVER MIND the fact that he is not really faking that much of the time anymore. He still hasn't really looked at himself and formed a new self-image. And in some situations where he just does not know how to respond honestly he will fall back on familiar patterns. Which is how he ends up doing things like talking about how he's an old man and half-flirting with Battler and making out with Beatrice after too many things have happened to deal with.
So I guess in a sense he is approaching it... backwards... as compared to Beatrice? Maybe? Which is why simultaneously is so impressed by Clair and why he doesn't quite know how to help her. (Side note, I think I managed to stay gender-neutral in action tags but Raven will absolutely use female pronouns for Clair even though he... got what the bathrooms were about to a certain extent... because she's female to him and he doesn't think that hard.)
Though he is also super hypocritical of course because I'm sure he's told Beatrice I AM SURE YOU KNOW THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF AND THINGS YOU WANT JUST START FROM THERE!! before. ...And I was going to have something else more deep here but I got tired and I have rambled enough about my own character in your post anyway!
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Her questions were sort of asking if he got tired of being "Raven" but really what he was tired of that point was... Aather-responsible-persona, which you could call "King" or you could just call "being responsible." Getting tired of his brand of being responsible which mostly involves ignoring all of his own feelings in favor of doing what he thinks he needs to in bad situations, GASP WHO WOULD HAVE IMAGINED. Raven maybe you just need better coping mechanisms.
He has real trouble thinking of it that way though! In his opinion Damuron died ten years ago and it's impossible to be him anymore even if he wanted to, Schwann is also dead and was never real and kind of terrible anyway, and what he's left with is Raven which was just a mask! And he's trying to fill in things behind it now with bits and pieces as he slowly figures out his actual honest feelings but it's still a work in progress! NEVER MIND the fact that he is not really faking that much of the time anymore. He still hasn't really looked at himself and formed a new self-image. And in some situations where he just does not know how to respond honestly he will fall back on familiar patterns. Which is how he ends up doing things like talking about how he's an old man and half-flirting with Battler and making out with Beatrice after too many things have happened to deal with.
So I guess in a sense he is approaching it... backwards... as compared to Beatrice? Maybe? Which is why simultaneously is so impressed by Clair and why he doesn't quite know how to help her. (Side note, I think I managed to stay gender-neutral in action tags but Raven will absolutely use female pronouns for Clair even though he... got what the bathrooms were about to a certain extent... because she's female to him and he doesn't think that hard.)
Though he is also super hypocritical of course because I'm sure he's told Beatrice I AM SURE YOU KNOW THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF AND THINGS YOU WANT JUST START FROM THERE!! before. ...And I was going to have something else more deep here but I got tired and I have rambled enough about my own character in your post anyway!