HMMM OKAY. Obviously accusing Raven of thinking she's broken is just paranoid inferiority complexing :') I don't think that needs much explanation
While Beatrice typically tries very hard, Clair is the aspect that is just like "FUCK IT". So moreso than usual, being stuck like this means it's hard for her to act in a conscious way. So in social interactions she is pretty much giving up at trying the entire time; this personality fragment was never meant to interact with people and is spectacularly bad at it... THOUGH CLAIR HAS COME A LONG WAY from just intense obsessive self-hatred.
Anyway the whole "Do you ever get tired of being yourself?" thing comes from that. Since Beatrice is already established in Aather, but that persona takes a lot of motivation to upkeep, and she's kind of just like UGHHH I DON'T WANT TO GO TO SCHOOL BE BEATRICE TODAY. But rather than feeling guilty about it, I think she's trying to confront that feeling head-on and go from there. And she doesn't consciously recognize it, but she's slowly gathering momentum towards being a more outgoing and expressive person, without really faking it '^' (Eventually I like to think she'll make it to a point where her old self and new self are very close, and she will start doing things deliberately again but with more genuine self-confidence and acceptance.)
Anyway, as far as Raven goes, she's genuinely kind of frightened by the possibility that he doesn't have any sort of inner voice whatsoever :') She is bonkers, but the fact that she has a true self outside of everything she shows to people is basically the key element to her mysteries, so it's more that she can't understand someone who has completely lost sight of themselves. So she really does want to go into his heart and see what's up because she wants a general idea of how to proceed. IT'S EXTREMELY HYPOCRITICAL THOUGH and since the opportunity won't present itself easily she will probably calm down and try to consider him from different perspectives the more she thinks about it. tbh she sort of like--has some sort of weird complex where EVERYONE ELSE IS MORE NORMAL THAN ME NO MATTER HOW BAD THEY THINK THEY ARE so I think it unsettles her a little if he's not "normal" but he doesn't follow standard procedure of Beato-normal either. COULD IT BE THAT HE IS MORE FUCKED UP THAN ME? AM I OUT OF MY LEAGUE??
She needs to get over herself to advance both in her own life and in her understanding of Raven, basically :Ba
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While Beatrice typically tries very hard, Clair is the aspect that is just like "FUCK IT". So moreso than usual, being stuck like this means it's hard for her to act in a conscious way. So in social interactions she is pretty much giving up at trying the entire time; this personality fragment was never meant to interact with people and is spectacularly bad at it... THOUGH CLAIR HAS COME A LONG WAY from just intense obsessive self-hatred.
Anyway the whole "Do you ever get tired of being yourself?" thing comes from that. Since Beatrice is already established in Aather, but that persona takes a lot of motivation to upkeep, and she's kind of just like UGHHH I DON'T WANT TO
GO TO SCHOOLBE BEATRICE TODAY. But rather than feeling guilty about it, I think she's trying to confront that feeling head-on and go from there. And she doesn't consciously recognize it, but she's slowly gathering momentum towards being a more outgoing and expressive person, without really faking it '^' (Eventually I like to think she'll make it to a point where her old self and new self are very close, and she will start doing things deliberately again but with more genuine self-confidence and acceptance.)Anyway, as far as Raven goes, she's genuinely kind of frightened by the possibility that he doesn't have any sort of inner voice whatsoever :') She is bonkers, but the fact that she has a true self outside of everything she shows to people is basically the key element to her mysteries, so it's more that she can't understand someone who has completely lost sight of themselves. So she really does want to go into his heart and see what's up because she wants a general idea of how to proceed. IT'S EXTREMELY HYPOCRITICAL THOUGH and since the opportunity won't present itself easily she will probably calm down and try to consider him from different perspectives the more she thinks about it. tbh she sort of like--has some sort of weird complex where EVERYONE ELSE IS MORE NORMAL THAN ME NO MATTER HOW BAD THEY THINK THEY ARE so I think it unsettles her a little if he's not "normal" but he doesn't follow standard procedure of Beato-normal either. COULD IT BE THAT HE IS MORE FUCKED UP THAN ME? AM I OUT OF MY LEAGUE??
She needs to get over herself to advance both in her own life and in her understanding of Raven, basically :Ba